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My Dairy

16.9.9

Pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya hai. Ek pal khush hoti hoon toh dusre pal hi aankhe chal chala jaati hain. Yeh kya ho raha hai? Kya mein sach mein khush hoon ya… pata nahi. Shayad mein apne dil ki baat accept nahi kar rahi hoon. Jab bhi khushi ke bare mein sochti hoon toh sabse pehle Casper(name changed ;) ) yaad aata hai. Usse baat karte waqt mein kitni khush rehti hoon. J well.. I know I am not in love but still there are some unknown feelings.Only God knows what is it.


Mujhey akela rehna bilkul nahi pasand.. kissey pasand hai?? Well… kabhi kabhi sochti hoon shaadi kar leti hoon saari tensions khatam ho jayengi.. saara kaam apne hubby se karaongi but …. Ohhh shaadi ke saath kitni jimmedariyan judi hain… abhi mein wo jimmedariyan nahi sambhal sakti. Phir kabhi sochti hoon.. kaash mein mar jaon .. meri taklifein toh khatam ho hi jayengi saath hi mom dad ke kitne saarey rupay bach jayenge. :0

Jo mujhe jaante hain wo kehte hain ki mein kitna sochti hoon aur mein unhe kehti hoon ki mein kya sochti hoon mujhey khud ko hi nahi pata chalta. Mujhey toh lagta hai mein bilkul soch hi nahi paati. Kal Shady ko wish kiya.. unse baat karke aacha laga. Duniya ke mahaan paaglon ko gina jaye toh unka naam top 10 mein toh aa hi jayega I am sure J well he is just another kiddo like me.. 22 saal ke ho gaye hain per abhi bhi apne aapko mujhse chota kehte hain… koi unki galat fehmi door karo pls J


Friendship ! --- Is it like always your best buddy or bosom friend would be your partner in all your adventures? No, sometimes we start expecting from our friends more than what our relationship offers. Obviously , he is not your caretaker or your partner in your sufferings and one need to understand this. So cheers ! let your friend be your good friend but make yourself your soul mate or best friend so that you need not look outside for inspiration or consolation. J

Hey ! what you do when you get bugged?? I write a diary J well I am getting terribly bugged so I think if I do not stop here I can write a whole diary book :D . So I stop here take care ! and see you!


Comments

Mr Happy said…
so what if someone expects more with their friends, if they can help , be it , it only nurtures relationship......
@ngel ~ said…
but it hurts when ur expectations r nt fulfil ... so better don't expect and when u dont expect then you are more likely to receive surprises ... :)

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