Just b-e-l-i-e-v-e!

... I can not help it now. I have come to this road. And it goes straight to Death. Don't be afraid my friend. Death will not swallow me. He is my groom. Once I am into him , he will be my shadow and I , his. I shall not live again and come to this earth. My days on earth will end soon. But dont you grieve or think I am again fooling myself. And... I tell you ... even if I am fooling myself , it is for my good...let me. Will you fight with me if I take medicine for the life is unbearable sometimes. You shall not. Be with me , we have got few good days left and when I shall be gone , you would miss me. Oh... you can not imagine. How glorious he looked. How does he work. How does he love me... so mutely , so meekly... and to see The King meek in front of me... I know the Power of Love. But I don't want to know anything... nothing... Do you remember , you told me once I can not be happy with any man. I have realized it now. I can not even be happy on earth. How can I be? when I a...

I know I have said those things which I shouldn't. But after I said them I couldn't rest even for a second. After you said Good-bye , I thought I will be Okay but I couldn't be. I waited for your Mid-night Miss calls. There was none. And since then you are on my mind. Its irresistible. Shall I be happy? Should I think its love? I don't know if it is. But I would sincerely like to think that it is.  I remember those lyrics - Nobody said it was easy , no one ever said it would be so hard ...  Yours J___ .