Just b-e-l-i-e-v-e!

One of my far relative committed suicide yesterday. She was aged . And the reason as assumed of her suicide  was her longing to live with her sons who at present live far from home. It was a tragedy. Not only of her but of our society and its contradictory values. Why contradictory? because it was her husband only who asked his son to go outside his hometown so that he will be able to earn more. The wish of her husband became the reason of her death. It is in the seeds of our Karma , our destiny lies. And "Samskara" or the bringing up of a child , shapes up your future and his own future. ***

Why the hell we are celebrating women's day? - Ask Yourself and Tell me. I had it in my mind to write about women as it was their day yesterday. But I couldn't write anything , because I think I have developed antipathy for almost all special "days" save Festivals. Festivals have their own charm , they are like a break from normal dull routine and their purpose are  religious , social and mental . But what about other special days? National days are good. But we have almost forgotten them . That is the irony of our modern life - we remember all trifle things while we tend to forget important dates and days.  So, all of you celebrate Friendship day , Valentine's day , may be others like Rose day , Chocolate day .... and yeah Women day , which is as trifle as all these days. No , I think Friendship Day is more serious among all , at least we do not pamper our friends or make new friends on that day , neither we forget them after wards. But take Valentine'...

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ my life's on the same track as before December - same track - same journey . hey wanna look inside my bag? umm... you will find nothing except - Gypsy Dreams :D - sounds interesting .. huh! :) When I was in hostel , I had a strong wish to live alone in Jaipur at PG (coz in 3 years I had seen so much of hostel life , now I wanted to begin a different journey , wanted to see a different life ) . So , I lived alone for almost 2-3 months then my sister joined me ... of course that was a great experience too ... living with real elder sister because from childhood we had hardly lived with each other... so after a long time we got a chance to spend time with each other and most shocking thing (to know each other :P ) . Before she joined me as my roomie , I was lost in my own world - on a Lonely Planet :P . I was too lonesome... but then this disease  taught me a lot. At that time ,I would read inspirational books , talk to myself for 2-3 hours , ...

I was talking about this in one of my facebook notes then I thought why not write it here as its a deep thought or an interesting discovery  ; at least for me . :) Sometimes in our life we adopt a code of behaving we call it manners and with regular practise it becomes a part of our nature. You have always been like this (for eg. A ) but have you ever tried being like some other (for eg. B) ... ?? You have been behaving in one manner till now , but when you adopt an another way of behaving or say living... you either love it or it may also leave you hollow , confused , disillusioned... I will give you my example that I was always "one" from inside and outside ...I opened my heart to everyone.. expressed my instant feelings or madness..... disclosed even my deepest and darkest secrets as if it had been a simple and mandatory introduction of me..( that was useless and unnecessary though I realize it now.).. I used to wonder how peo...

From past few days I have been writing on somber subjects but life is not wholly a tragic play , it is in fact a Tragi-comic play ... so this time I am going to write a light post in which I will talk about a Universal Fact and that is - " You never want (like) what you have."  How does it work?  Yesterday I was telling my sister that - "Didi marriage se pehle ek baar mujhey Blonde bf banana hai :P " now what's this? I am always crazy about blonde guys... I wanna know them , know their thought process etc etc... and see there are many whites who want an Indian girl or boy... they don't like their white skin... they want to settle down in India while most of Indians go outside for "A better Future". uuff... see I don't (want) what I already have ... Indian boys... :D  This is nothing 2-3 days back... I was looking at a girl's hairs (in literary fest.) and I was like Oh my God... wow... I wish I had such beautiful hairs... and then ne...

(Today , I watched “The Reader” , I cried ; not for the movie because nothing made us cry except something which lies inside us, I don’t exactly have words which could define what I am feeling now but I can say I am deeply touched . And pardon me for I am going to write my views , which are very personal , on a very delicate topic, and if you are not agree with this, I would respect your disagreement too.) I don’t know about every person but there are few people … people who have a secret space in their hearts . A space where no one entered before and no one is known to it. This secret chamber is never closed for the person himself and he can always feel its air. We ask what is love? For me, Love is the eyes which have seen this chamber of the beloved, the heart which knows its darkness , the breathe which is blended in its air … And the Lover is – one who is standing at its door , one who knows the person as well as his secret chamber. And I believe , only those people can feel love w...

I am going to see one more Christmas of my life. I will be alone. I don’t regret it. But I miss somebody. People who don’t belong to this earth. Those who are preciously and secretly kept in your heart and memory. The pictures of those days float in my mind… I can see myself as a young pretty woman who is very excited as Christmas is coming. She is excited to meet her family whom she has not seen for whole year. She would buy presents for all those near and dears. She has learnt a new recipe for cake also. But suddenly a picture pops in – a little girl appears… wearing a pretty frock and laces with a cute red cap… what an earthly angel she is!… before Christmas night when she is about to sleep.. she looks out of her window secretly … search for the moon… her mind starts running as what to think .. how to imagine… how to make this night wonderful … yeah! She got an idea… first she looks at the sky…night is lovely it has covered all the worries and sins of the evil world…the stars look e...

“…Sheetoshna Sukhdukheshu samah sangvivarjitah” It is a sholka of Bhagwad Gita. It says God likes those people who are same in Ushna(hot whether) Sheetoshna ( Cold ) , Sukh (happiness) and Dukh (Dissappointments) . How true and meaningful it is , though I did not realize it earlier. I even used to wonder why to be equal in both sukh and dukh? Why it is necessary? Although it is good that you are calm and composed in your hard times but why not to be excited when you are really happy? The answer which I found to these questions was that being equal in both phases suggests that you are balanced in your life and this balance naturally brings peace with it. Change is an essential quality of human life as well as nature’s. And learn to be composed in both your triumphs and failures suggest that you are aware of this change. Because it’s a cycle – you are happy today but remember tomorrow might not be your day. When some one is aware of this change he will neither be too excited nor two dep...

You receive so many mails in a day that you hardly remember any later on. But one mail is haunting me since I have read that. Its so applied and so relevant so true that one can not forget it and would always apply in his situation. It was a mail like – When you are a kid and student you have – Time + Energy – Money When you are working and youth you have – Energy + Money – Time When you are retired and old you have – Money + Time – Energy J How true it is naa.. I always dream what if I had money??? I would do this , buy that , Go here , Talk to friends , would have given so many gifts to my parents and siblings .. ohmigod.. life would have been wonderful.. but when my reasonable mind starts working I realize that its of no use… when I will be earning I wont be having time and infact I don’t think so I can do any damn job except teaching llolz…. Well don’t laugh I am serious J No seriously when you see me you would perceive that I have virtues of being a good teacher. Well well I was j...

3.9.9 [One hour has been passed since we are talking] Can you define love, Jeanie? It is very difficult but what I feel is that true love is , capability to sacrifice you happiness for your beloved's happiness. Love is a blend of pain and pleasure. (after a little awkward pause) hmm.. I am all ears to you . Pray speak! I have said what I think about love. OK Can you define sex? Well! Without love sex is just an excercise and with the feelings of love , passion , respect it gives divine pleasure and it reaches to the point of Spiritual union. Even I think this way. I know. I am not surprised that you know what I feel. (smiles) I love talking to you and exploring you . Its just like living in a fictious world where you are getting to know a novel's character. Yeah very true! May be our souls are made of one thing or just a part of it is same. hmm... Casper what prevents you to love me? We belong to different worlds. And? I do not fall easily in love. Me too ( smiles) Well then ch...