Does destiny bring you to a period? Or Can a period change the course of your destiny?
She thought her head will explode with tons of thoughts that weighed her down to lunacy. Being at times so restless she would tell him, "I m not feeling good, i m so restless, I am so upset..." N so n so but she didn't tell him, she was afraid she knew it was wrong. She was afraid to lose this happiness and surprising love. That she felt a distance from her Krishna. That she was in unknown unspoken fear all the time.
That day (ikadashi) she had asked Krishna to take the course of her life in His hands. Before next day, He had done so. After that night, she woke up a new person. She had chosen a path of " austerity and penance." She chose silence over fights. Peace over love. Stupor over life. There left only one purpose to live : Pass this lifetime in Krishna consciousness and fulfill the duties assigned by Him.
But will you wait at the end?
But will you remain like the most silent winds, around me?
Stay with me like a ghost!
Or I will be too alone to bear this.
As selfish as I am!
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