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Conditioning

Its Very Difficult !
Difficult
to shake off your Conditioning
to go against
Who made you
to go against yourself or - 
What you have become.


I stand before him ... 
and try to shake off ...
I try ...
try not to sound traditional
But I am no non-conformist either
I am...
I am still a struggler 
Struggling to find what I am
And to shake off 
What they have made me
And to embrace 
What I want to become
And...
And I become nothing.
I just remain a product of my conditioning. 


I want to love 
to...make...love...
And ...
I am sorry
I can not be me
you see...
marriage...
and ... lots of things ...
and ... I am afraid
and...
let it be.
I will try another day
try...
try to shake off my conditioning...
when I meet you another day.
I meet you another day !
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Anonymous said…
may be next incarnation of rebirth !!!!!
October 30, 2010 at 5:44 PM
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