Just b-e-l-i-e-v-e!

S.J. couldn't stop laughing when Ree (an old friend from an old school) told her why they were actually Like-minded (because both felt Same in the Same situations.) Ree was sharing her mixed experiences after marriage.  S.J. asked playfully , " Is it tough Ree?" "As unexpected, yes it is," gravely Ree replied. "Oh... what bothers you dear."  " I don't know. It feels like Life has come to an end. I am not living for myself. All dreams have shed. I have totally changed. I care less, I live less, I dream nothing. I am in comma I guess."  "Oh stop it. Look ! You are not changed. You have just grown up. Like after passing School , you have jumped into the college. That may be different, weird at times, but its not actually bad. " S.J. saw Ree was not convinced, she was lost. For a second, in a  flashback moment,  S.J. recalled how she had cope up with her own changed situations after marriage. May be every girl goes thro...

Weather is so beautiful now. High winds and raining since 5 days  nonstop. No work, no studies, just lie down and watch out the window.  Dreams , fantasies, ideas... Oh yes! I wrote one more short-film   script, after our first effort turned out to be pretty cool. I love this weather, it's so inspiring. Stories, poetry...life comes  out in the words. Pain, ecstasy, all raw emotions can be felt in just one  single day. I had a dream. I still think of it sometimes. That someday I would  live on a high green hill, close to nature , in a natural way. May be some day!

I thought I have got a straight road.  I had forgotten the earth is round and all roads collide into one.  I am glad to meet you again.  You are handsome...but I can't see your eyes... I want to look into them. Really. ~jennie

Yes ! S.J. is two names for one person. Somyaa exists in the real world and Jennie exists in the mind of Somyaa. Somyaa has her world, her goodie life and a loving husband while Jennie is a wandering girl who lives on dreams and memories of a secret past. Somyaa married the man she fell in love with. Jennie has only the memories of a mysterious love. Somyaa is mostly lost into a world where real problems are ready to throw you down, where there is no time to think, where there is everything is plain and clear. But Jennie ... she is angelic, soft-hearted and more than a human. She is a philosophic creature. She wonders what is destiny, what is soulmate, what is past life? S.J. series are the Thought-Stories of Somyaa and Jennie. #p.s# I don't know what made me explain all of this today. Perhaps, Jennie is too confused and nostalgic. 

"I think I can't take the after-roles of an Indian bride." S.J. wondered was she always a depressing kind of ? An unhappy brooding girl who always complained for one thing or another ? " I think I saw him. He was the first one to believe , I was capable of Love." All goes fine with everyone, but the disasters only happen to S.J. Why ! why on the earth she makes such horrible mistakes that she begins to hate herself? " I think I can't ever go back to that beautiful dream. A married indian girl has no home of hers. " She feels terrible about it. Like everything has changed just with one date.  Her home is no more hers. And what she has to accept, she can't, its not easy to bend, is it? "I think I need to fall in love with myself again. Into the world of mystery, magic and beyond the horizon."

The first year of marriage that too if you are staying in a joint business family - No comments.[:p] The first thing I have learned is to be Polite. I was always quite type which people take for politeness but after marriage I have actually begun to keep two Ps in my life - Politeness and Patience. Well today just in code words - 1. I miss my home. 2. I miss the way my parents celebrated every occasion. 3. I love my hubby. Despite his tough looks, he is adorable. 4. I want a home of my own. 5. I want a sensible and meaningful life. That's enough for today. Isn't it. However! it is the time for celebration.Its my Anniversary :)    

As the Valentine's Day come I realize Love is not a thing to show a thing to eat a thing to pray or a thing to dance with it is just a word unspoken to yourself a smile given to no one, but oneself a good thought for all and a kiss blown to life it is just a thing to be felt at anytime of life at anyplace in the universe. 

I think I would be dead by the time I finished my Ph.d. what the ---- is that I am already bored. I am tired. Not with only books, reports,unnecessary pop-ups but also with marriage parties, gossips, same faces, same rituals, same food and same worries. I have begun to worry a lot. Does that mean I have joined the Club "30s" - the age that brings lot of worries with it. About career, shift, kids, their childhood and troublesome teenage, house, parents oh....endless sufferings. I never wanted to become a part of it- the boring cycle of life. I wanted mystery, adventure, thrill, mission - altogether a different life. Sometimes (like today) I feel like leaving everything behind and go out in the world. I feel trapped. And you know what, I understand its all planned. It is like the movie As Above So Below . You are meant to be there, the trap is set for you, you feel lost, you lose hope and those who do they never come out but those who put a little effort and have faith they ca...

What a fabulous topic to write! Thanks to Garnier and Indiblogger to give us a chance to discuss what is generally not discussable. Pimples! and not just pimples, it is moreover dull, deadly, uneven skin which makes people ask -are you not well? are you sleepy ? mood off? eh ! so irritating. It does not matter you are a housewife and stay at home all day long, your skin goes so dusty by night. People say, do not use soap, cosmetics or try any new brand but what is one supposed to do then? Now a days you do not dream to look like beauty queens Madhubala , Madhuri or Marlyn . You are just fine if you look like yourself. When you watch Ndtv Goodtimes' Band Baja and Bride , you wish if you could also go through the ideal Cindrella's make over. But that is not for all. Being a middle class  average looking girl , you have to discover a magic wand for yourself. via: http://www.garnier.in/ Acquiring the traditional ayurveda knowledge , you know that for oily skin Neem ...

All my life I didn’t do anything than dreaming. And the tragedy is, I feel contrary to my dreams. For example – I dream to be a great poet, writer. But I feel I am a better critic than a writer itself. Another one is – I dream to have a royal job where I don’t have to do much and get a fat salary but I feel I am better at challenges and management. Whew! So, I decide, no matter I run after getting a fat-salary-job, I would do my best to keep alive my other talents. I had some school-time-dreams like – Opening a Club, Being an editor of a quarterly or periodical. Seriously…! These are my childish dreams. But I see them fulfilling in near future. Yo! I have already opened a Club. The name is – LOL (Live Our Life) Another instant name like My-World. Well ! All I know is – I am not born to live inside four walls. I am not an Aquarium Fish. I am born to be a Name. I am.  via: Google images